I don't belong here.

No, I don't belong here.
I'm gonna set side
& set sail
for the kingdom come, kingdom come
your kingdom come
won't you let me down...
let my foolish pride forever let me down

-The Beautiful Letdown. Switchfoot.

But our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, who will transform our lowly body to be like his glorious body, by the power that enables him even to subject all things to himself. Therefore, my brothers, whom I love and long for, my joy and crown, stand firm thus in the LORD, my beloved.

Philippians 3:20-4:1

the moral of the story

things that stressed me out this week:

1. Three tests in two days.

Monday: Marriage and Family at 8:00, Biologoy 1010 at 9:00

Tuesday: Child Development

2. A spur of the moment scholarship application. Really, this one was all my fault - my parents emailed the information to me in January. I had decided to not apply, and then on Wednesday, I got the "we really want you to apply for this...[insert twenty reasons why]" phone call. Needless to say, that phone call put me in line and I spent all of Wednesday and Thursday writing personal statements, filling out applications, dealing with the registrar's office (grrr), lining up reference letters... unexpected projects are so mentally draining.

3. Officially applying to the Psychology major. This one has been postponed for the past year, so I figured - while I'm already filling out applications and writing personal essays, why not get this one taken care of as well?

things that helped to relieve my stress:

1. Going to see Valentine's Day on Tuesday night with my roommates

2. Crab Cakes at Amsterdam and a shopping excursion to Reinvent with Kelsey

3. Watching Confessions of a Shopaholic, Atonement, Pride and Prejudice, and Whip It. All in two days.

4. this song.

So, the lesson learned is: Don't procrastinate. Do what your parents ask you to do, when they tell you to do it. And if you fail to do either of those, have a stack of movies and plans to go to your favorite restaurant ready for the weekend.

vice #1

My GREATEST weakness as far as food is concerned are these: Triple Chocolate M&Ms Premiums.

Generally speaking, chocolate is a major, huge, ridiculously unreasonable vice in my life. No matter how healthy I eat, no matter how much I exercise, no matter how many healthy life decisions I make in a day, around ten PM, I always crave the sweet, bitter, melt-in-your-mouth sensation that is chocolate. Forget the inevitable break out, the sure to happen regret of this dietary decision the next morning - the only satisfying solution I've found is this over-priced candy. Because I'm such a nerd in all areas of my life (including personal finance), I was able to look back at how much I spent last semester on late night runs to Kroger and Walgreens for chocolate. The amount is astonishing. shocking. embarrassing. My name is Jana Musselwhite, and I'm a chocaholic.

This year is different, though. I've stopped buying junk food, increased my fruit and vegetable intake, and exercised more consistently. After 51 days into 2010, I've only made the late night chocolate run three times. Where in the world did this will power come from!?

Tonight was one of those three instances. After this stress-filled, nauseatingly long week, I needed to lay on the couch, turn on HBO, pour a tall glass of milk and enjoy a box of my beloved Triple Chocolate M&Ms Premiums. Yes, I regret it. But in the moment, it was marvelous. Absolutely marvelous.

cheeeese!

la photo cabine

I spent an HOUR on this website last night. Taking ridiculous pictures is stress relief at its finest.

valentine greetings

I made these a couple of weeks ago, but wanted to wait until everyone had received theirs before posting pictures. They are a couple of the homemade valentines I sent this year, made with blank cards, scrapbook paper and sharpie pens. So incredibly easy. I think I've decided to make my own cards from now on. This was I can say what I want to say, and not have to mess with the terrible commercialism that is Hallmark. Hooray for creativity! Hooray for being able to make and send cards that have exactly what you want on them!