is it august yet?

my friends, I'm in a funk.

I'm not liking this summer. at all.

Summer should be friends, and books, and trips to the beach.

My summer is work, and little to no time with friends (because we all work), and ZERO sun due to thirty hours a week spent under fluorescent lighting.

Just a word about work...

because of work, I'm up at six every morning and in bed by ten thirty, if not earlier. I spend approximately five hours a day sitting in my cubicle with nothing to do (meaning I only have about four hours a day of productivity... including my lunch break), during which I listen to Andrew Bird Radio on Pandora and soak up every word of cnn.com and design sponge and style me pretty. Yes, I get paid $10 an hour, but it's so boring. And don't even get me started about the people I work with... yes, they're all pleasant (for the most part), nice people who are easy to get along with. But they're engineers, and I miss spending time with my artsy, creative friends who have good taste in music and appreciate the same things that I do. That sounds incredibly selfish, but it's true.

Also, I'm probably one of three women in the office who does NOT smoke.

all of this to say... please text me at work. and if you can hang out on a week night, let's do it because I'm DYING for quality time with all of you.

moving on...

A couple of nights ago, I watched the movie Bright Star. It was probably one of the most beautiful, breathtaking, heart wrenching movies I've seen since Pride & Prejudice, mainly because the hot HOTT Ben Whishaw played the role of John Keats. I mean - who doesn't want to spend two hours of their life listening to this beautiful man read poetry in a Brittish accent? That's what I thought...

in closing, aside from the occasional wonderful movie, this summer is boring, I miss Auburn, and I'm trying to find ways to make my life more interesting until August. All suggestions are more than welcome, but until then, I'm counting down the days until I move back to Auburn. Literally:

a little fun to lighten the mood

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2. Go listen to The Riverside Worship Project. A couple of them are friends of mine from Auburn and they're touring this summer, playing at camps and playing the mainstage at Cornerstone Festival. Seriously, they're going to be big one day. My friend Lauren and I went to visit them at one of their events last weekend and it was much fun.

3. These kids continue to inspire me. If you haven't heard them before, be sure to watch their performance of Phoenix's "Lisztomania" and Owl City's "Fireflies". Phenomenal.

the single person's identity

another weakness of mine is staying up late.

I do it. I'm doing it now. I'm exhausted, but I just can't bring myself to close my computer. Blogging, Facebook, Twitter all beckon. It's a problem, and I have to be up at 7:45 in the morning.

However, while browsing through page after page, I stumbled upon a note posted by a high school acquaintance. I don't know where she got it from, but it's so perfect:

"Everyone longs to give himself completely to someone, to have a deep soul relationship with another. To be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But God, to the Christian says, "No, not until you are satisfied and fulfilled and content with living and being loved by me alone. To have an intense and personal unique relationship with me alone. I love you my child. Until you discover that in only me, you will never be united with another, until you are united with me exclusively of anyone or anything else. Exclusive of any desires or longings. So my child, I want you to stop planning, and stop your wishing. Allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing, one that you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the best. Please allow me to bring it to you. You just keep watching me, expecting the greatest things. Keep that satisfaction. knowing you can keep learning and listening to the things that i tell you. You must wait. Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look around at the things you think you want. You just keep looking off, and away up to me, or you will miss me and what i have to show you. When you are ready, I will surprise you with a love far more wonderful that you would ever dream.

I want you to see in the flesh, a picture of your relationship with me. To enjoy the everlasting union, of beauty and perfection and love, that I offer you with myself. Know that I love you. I am God Almighty. Believe it and be satisfied."

post-friday night thoughts

I've been eating too much dessert lately.

Let me explain:

Between last night's Godiva chocolate cheesecake from the cheesecake factory, leftover engagement party cake, a forgotten ice cream sandwich cake (which is now downstairs, tightly sealed in our big freezer, waiting to be pulled out for a special occasion), and a huge tub of mint chocolate chip ice cream, bought by my mom as consolation ("I'm sorry your brother backed into your car in the driveway last week"), it's enough to make me want to go junk food free for the rest of the summer.

I think I just might do that.

On a different note, I saw "Killers" last night. It was a cute movie, but very far fetched and not as wonderful as I thought it would be. However, I still love Katherine Heigl's hair and Ashton Kutcher's abs.

perfect summer kickoff weekend, check.

I've come to expect really great things from Memorial Day weekend. Last year it was spent in Auburn. This year I was in Birmingham, celebrating the marriage of an old Bible study leader and the engagement of a best friend. That's right, I hosted an engagement party. I felt like such an adult, and even though it was very last minute and I didn't have time to do half the things I wish I could have, it was still a fun, sweet celebration with Katherine and Mike's closest friends. If they felt only half as blessed as I did by the company that surrounded them, then I think it was a job well done.

The wedding was also so much fun. Caitlin and Jeffrey have such a Christ centered, God glorifying relationship, and it was a blessing to celebrate their marriage with them. It was a night of fellowship, incredible food, and dancing until our feet hurt.

What a completely marvelous Memorial Day weekend. Summer, you may begin.